help! ok I'll help.
brain struggle... If you're doing the opposite of what was requested while knowing the resulting conflict will make you isolated/upset, then why are you doing it? self fulfilling prophecy? self sabotage? we all keep doing it to ourselves. I'm stuck in this torturous cycle at work where there isn't all that much to do, so naturally, I procrastinate the few things I could be doing, and do things that make me feel worse instead (like doom scrolling)... I want to replace that with time spent learning- either about work/gallery things, or just my general interests. Writing these goals down usually helps me, so I'll write them below and hold myself to checking in with this blog to see if I've stuck to it.
long list of things to do at work (anti-suffering)
- read one of my gallery management books
- work on website (duh)
- read a gripping novel
- learn about textile art
- watch oil painting technique videos
- go to the campus library and check out some books
- watch videos about graphic design
- sketch thumbnails
- journal!!
- find a bug or animal or something.
- hand-write a list of recipes
- come up with ideas for a calendar or tarot cards
- do research on the artists in the collection
- do research on a gallery that is similar to mine
- make a sketch/thumbnail inspired by artworks in the collection
- write a paragraph/poem inspired by artworks in the collection
- make a bunch of lists of things
- think of 62 bugs songs
- write e-mails/cards to my family members
- office yoga video with Adrienne
I'm going to try to do at least two of these things every day. I'll keep you updated. In the meantime, what else has been on my silly mind? Reader, you may or may not know much about me. I like to paint but I physically cannot do it right now (psychic block). The only thing I desire and chase is inspiration (severely lacking atm..) I work at an art gallery that is only starting out. I hold my friends and family dear to my heart, but it's hard to me to reach out to them. I want to change, I always want to change! I will do it. I've been feeling immense anxiety every day but I am fighting against it. Gonna put my best effort in and stop letting myself slip.
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